The World As Seen By Mikey Gatal

MY DEFINTION OF LOVE BY NEILLE

My Definition of LOVE

A true love can bear the longitude of waiting even if it takes forever.

When confused about love, follow your heart. It may not always be right, but you will have the memories to make you smile. If your head tells you one thing and your heart tells you another thing, before you decide, you should first think whether you have a better head or heart. It’s okay to kiss a fool or to let the fool kiss you but never let a kiss fool you.

Don’t find love, let it find you, that’s why it’s called falling in love because you don’t force yourself to fall, you just fall. Never be ashamed to show love when you feel it because one day you might realize that love is already afraid to show itself to you.

To love someone is to have courage to walk away and let go the other one who wishes to be free, no matter how much it hurts.

Never say, “I LOVE YOU” when you don’t even care. Never talk about feelings if they aren’t there. Never touch a heart if you mean to break it. Never look in the eyes if all you have to say is a lie, and never say hello if you mean goodbye. Love is like a butterfly, the more you chase it the more it eludes you, but if you just let it fly, it would come to you when the least you expect. On the course of love people must teach their hearts to be brave enough to let go when they realized when things are not meant to be after all. Most relationship are like traffic signs, 1 way, 2 way, do not enter, slippery when wet, no U turn, no left turn, but what i like most is to give way. I mean what’s the use of forcing yourself to someone, or why believe something not likely to prosper. I think it will just be a waste of time.

Words and hearts should be handled with care, for words when spoken and hearts when broken are the hardest things to repair.

The simplest pick-up line doesn’t have so many words, all I need is “I”

for me to say, “LOVE” for me to share it and “YOU” for me to give it.

Don’t share your tears to someone who hurt you. Don’t long for the person if they left. Don’t feel sorry if you fail when you try your best. Someone out there is more deserving of your time and love.

If I tell you “I LOVE YOU” you shouldn’t wonder why, or how, or since when or for how long because I wouldn’t have a single answer except to tell you again.

In the game of love, it doesn’t matter who win or lose, what is important is that you know when to hold on and when to let go. It’s the presence of the soul that makes you “live”. If your heart gets broken by the time you truly love, don’t let go of the love for the person but let go of the person. You’ll never know love might be sweeter the second time around.

It’s hard to find true love because people are too caught up looking for the perfect person, they don’t realize that love is not finding the perfect person but being the perfect person for someone else. Love knows no reason, love knows no lie, love defers all reason, love has no eyes, but love is not blind, they can see but they don’t mind. We are sometimes afraid to say “I LOVE YOU” instead we say “I MISS YOU” but often don’t realize he/she is also feeling the same feelings that you do.

Love not because the person is the only one but because the person is the one you are willing to give up everything because it’s worth fighting for. It’s hard to pretend to love someone that you don’t but it’s harder to pretend you don’t love someone that you do. Once you had love, you will always love. For what’s on your mind may escape, but what’s on your heart will always remain forever.

Love is not how to forget but rather how to forgive. It is not how you listen but how you understand. Not by what you say, but by what you do and not by what you receive but what you give. True love wants a person to be happy even if you won’t be the one the person will share his/her happiness with. If you love someone don’t hold back, never hide your feelings, never economize your love and most of all never take the person for granted because you will never value what you have till its gone.

Sometimes we think that loving someone can be such a risky thing. How else would you win if you don’t take chances? You don’t lose by giving, you lose by holding back. Never try to impress someone to make him/her fall in love with you coz when you do you will have to keep the standard for the rest of your life. Never rush in love, for it never runs out.

Let love be the one to look for you, so that when you start fallin’ you will always know that feeling is sure.

YES!!! It drives you crazy, it makes you mad, jealous and sad, it even causes sleepless nights and it even break your heart. Well, come to think of it, it is healthy to fall in love. True love is not when the heart beats faster or fastest, but when it beats no more and yet the love is still there. If you have reason why you love a person then you are using your mind. But if you love a person with no reason at all, then you are using your heart. Love is not a word to say when we feel guilty, not a right word to say when we like a person, but love really matters when we share our thoughts, our minds and our hearts. How do I say goodbye to someone I never hold? Why do I fear to fall for someone who was never really mine? Why do I miss someone I was never been with?

Why do I love someone whose love was never been truly mine?

Posted by -nEiLLe- Bosworth

boy, don’t cry

Dearest,

When was the last time you cried yourself to sleep? Not that I long for you to be emotionally distressed, enough for you to shed tears… Remember, you used to tell me, “Such a beautiful release it is to strum one’s emotional strings; to bathe naked one’s soul with the swelling eyes.”

Yes, it truly is human nature. Mama’s babe cries hard upon his first choking gasp of air—and I guess, it pays, sometimes to be mummy’s teary eyed grown-up. It brings back a sense of a new beginning—much like a re-birth.

But it’s hard isn’t it?

In this contemporary time when many are in physical, emotional, spiritual, social and even internal pain, and many thus find a sense of comfort in sobbing, shouldn’t I be thankful that I haven’t had found reason to cry?

As I grow older, I feel more fortified from the “sea of emotions” that I once attributed to life. Innocence lost leads to numbing out, I guess. It’s no pretty picture, but right now it is what I see.

I feel like singing now:
Hush little baby don’t you cry, mama’s go’nna buy you a Mocking Bird.
And if that Mocking Bird don’t mock, mama’s go’nna buy you a diamond ring.

Matter more than ideas has concerned me a lot lately. Not that I am focusing my energies into making myself rich. No sir! But, I hadn’t had the luxury of time to breathe-in figments. I miss doing this.

I remember myself cry every time I finish writing something which truly reflects my ideas– but not lately. No time even to write. How come, when I have owed much from this art, why have I deliberately allowed myself to find a block… a valid reason not to attempt writing.

The obsession of material concerns have taken control over subliminal forms of compulsion: crying, writing, deep-breathing, praying… keeping attuned with self. I truly miss my self.

Perhaps, it’s not just me. Maybe even you, my dearest, had you had time to cry whilst someone goes to buy you something so you could just hush… Be a child. Pretend that your diamonds do not glitter. Cry your heart out.

Four weeks have passed since we had this emotional separation.Finally, it is no longer painful. Tomorrow it’s gonna be new year’s eve. Am I glad to have slipped on the bathroom floor, though I didn’t cry because of pain, I was forced to have time to my self… and finally, write. But not cry =)

People say,real friend is hard to find,

and even to some it’s like looking for gold in the mine.

I guess God was quite gracious to me,

with little instructions He said,”My child just wait and see”.

It did not take too long for God to reveal,

the friend destined for me to feel.

The friendship that i have been seeking all my life,

was to be found if i’d look into the light.

With a gentle touch on my neck,

it gave me chills when i learned that his name was Hec.

And that very moment on i knew,

real friendship was in you!

my very special friend Hector wasn’t around to greet me on my special day that’s why at the start of the day i was kinda lonely and i just accepted the fact that he’s so far away to visit his mom and i know in spirits he was with me.i did not know that he left a bday card for me and i thank him for that!

i know someone out there understood…the feelings that i have felt the past few days. though, i had an argument with my love one today but no worries,we patched things up right away… all’s well that ends well and thank goodness.

i am happy to let you know that i am just very happy today and please think of the positive things that happened for me and that God is always there to guide and listen to me and to all who needs His help,don’t hesitate!

i love you all,

Mikey

"I posted the below message on myspace and found it very therapeutic.

Yesterday, September 3rd we lost our baby girl, my niece, Kirstie Lyn

Stewart. She passed away in her sleep. This little girl had so much

personality and was talented. She just completed her first week of

school - this was her last year in junior high school before she went on

to high school. She made cheer again this year and thought she was

running with the "big guns" in junior high school. Kirstie was a

friendly little girl with soooo many friends. Kirstie was always

listening to music, dancing (the kid was always bouncing off the walls

with energy), on the phone with her friends and always making her faces

(like her uncle Anthony).I can't believe she's gone.

The only comforting thoughts I have is that she's with my grandparents

and my godmother and she's being looked after well."

“Negative pressure knows no boundaries for it is always there. It leads us to the path of destruction. It binds us to bad influences which later we initiate them ourselves. As we strive for a positive view of life, trials pave way for us to handle tough decisions which may lead to our downfall or may lead to become a new person. In my life, I had been to many negative pressures and went to tough paths crossing the road of peer pressure.

When I was in my first year in high school, I was influenced by colleagues to start smoking. Days passed by and it turned into a bad habit. Whenever we had lunch at our tambayan which was the “Nipa Hut”, I would light one and just smoke even if I didn’t know how to smoke. I would puff in front of them as if trying to fit in the group. But this bad habit soon ended as my mother caught some tobacco bits in the pocket of my polo as I went home from school. Then she would interrogate me and I told lies just to cover up this bad habit saying that those were just peanut bits. But knowing that my mother is an expert in those things and as some people say, mothers knows best because of their “sixth sense”. She caught me in that instant and as my father knew about it, he got mad and I never did it again.

As we transferred to Bohol, I became oriented with the “Visayan-speaking clans”. Many events occurred which led me to many wrongdoings and negative pressures.

When I started as a sophomore at this school, bad start-ups where not far because when you are new in school, expect people to envy you and some who would be nice to you. Well’ in the first five weeks in school was a tough one. I heard that a group of male students wanted to have a piece of me because of my bag. Well I could say, at that time, this kind of bag fad was the most popular fad in town. Many would kill for this kind of bag. As I became aware of it, I used that bag as I entered school everyday. Well what I hoped for came one day when me and my friends got out of class to have recess, as we walked through the corridors, this tall and dark guy blocked our way with his friends looking at me, I was so terrified and rushed outside looking for my uncle and cried in front of him. Then he and his friends brought me back to the room and confronted that boy who was so desperate to kick me.

After that incident, no one ever dared to touch me. I guess it made me stronger at one point.

Another situation was when I introduced myself to opposite peers and met this beautiful girl who was then the muse of the freshmen. Everytime I see her, I would always greet her. But I wasn’t sure of myself because it was my first time to actually court a girl and because of what clearly entered in my mind was that this hottie was lined with suitors and I was just a newbie. But I still pursued myself to her and we became closer, we went out together with friends. One time while I was waiting for her, there was this another guy harassing my friend and so I told him to stop. He came near me and he said that he will wait for me after class. But I didn’t mind him because this beautiful girl arrived and went to me and just talk and laugh together.

As classes ended, me and a friend went out to grab merienda in a snakhaus. Just as we were about to leave the campus, two guys grabbed me side by side and we went to a vacant lot and there waited, this rejected suitor who wanted to have a duel with me. So without hesitation, I went to him and wanted to stop this nonsense and just talk to him. But because of desperation, he tried to give a punch but instead created a scratch on my face and I threw a punch over his left eye. Then a struggle aroused between us. The fight ended when this pastor picked us up. We shook our hands and ended this feud. The next day came and we had our scouting session, as classes ended, me and my friends went out to eat. This girl hurried to meet me because of the news she heard about a fight. She comforted me and even treated me for snacks. Then the rest of the days turned out to be a wonderful time.

As I reached my senior years, I was put to a test when I was suspended for a week because I was caught drunk by a teacher. It was my first time to drink alcoholic beverages. As we were suspended, we were divided into two groups. One group were to clean the corridors and the other were to clean the restrooms and all other rooms. It was an experience which I faced that marked a difference.

Peer pressure marks a difference in our lives. We react to situations and choose what’s weighed lightly.

When I was in my college years, these were the times when I began as an alcohol-drinker. I involved myself in fraternities and later into drug addiction. One mistake was that I never learned to say No to influences that came and it paved way for me to go to wrong direction than what I had hoped for. As I reflected upon past experiences that happened in my life. I realized that it hadn’t made me any greater person or a successful one. I lost the trust of my parents who were always there for me in hard times and in good times, guided me to life and growth, supported my dreams, gave me a better life which I deserved to have.

As I walk away from this bad yesterday, the chance I could only have now, to be better in life and to gain the trust and make my parents proud is to finish my studies. Give it to the fullest in days that I had wasted and leave bad memories behind, to regain my self-confidence and earn the love of my mom and dad.

What I learned is that God is always there for us and parents are the instruments for which they would make us better persons that we could be. Striving for positive pressure begins with obedience at home and learning to say No.”

today my friend “Yusuke” helped me colored my hair and he seems to be a nice guy doing this for me and he has soft hands and i even fell asleep when preparing my hair for the coloring,well, i have to wear a cap for highlighting and he just did fine,i liked it,i loved it! hope i can color for more everyday coz i am pampered feeling like that!we just been very good to each other today sharing conversations of his life back home and once in a while joke each other and i am happy indeed i have a friend from overseas!thanks “Yusuke”

the past few days were just not good and it all came back as our special friend called again and told us everything’s ok now especially back there in his country(earthquake occured)! i am thankful that it did not happen to my native land!I thanked the Lord for the blessings He has given me everyday and good health… Pls guide my family,relatives,friends and especially my good friend Hector, he is such a wonderful and understanding person.